Two years ago i turned 29 and let me tell you it came with so much emotions i had no idea where from and even then if you asked me if i would be where i am today i would say you are taking a piss . Last year i turned 30, graduated my Masters, quit my job of over 4 years, moved across the continent to follow a passion i have since longed to and here we are today, a year after all these massive changes and after experiencing life on a whole different level, i can say i LIVED.

I don’t know what it is about birthdays that is both emotionally overwhelming but also at the same time very fulfilling, its like your body really feels the growth and shift that happens in that change and its either holding on to the former year being scared of what the next would bring but also embracing all the possibilities, me and a friend spoke about this once when she said she always has the urge to cry uncontrollably on her birthday, and i said me too girl i have long released myself from the need to explain i just say its my body washing away the year and all the things it came with. The thing about birthdays is, oddly you already know you turn older every year and if you are me then you know you have been fussing over your birthday pretty much since September (don’t judge me i am a Scorpio after all, however this year was really filled with so much anxiety i am ashamed to say there was no fussing about birthdays) but somehow the closer it gets its as if it truly hits you or like internally there is this invisible shift that i cant even seem to find the words for at all but it all goes down to gratitude being positively overwhelmed with joy, laughter, love seeing how far i have come and just being in total awe like look at God hey.

I wanted to write down some of my discoveries as i turn 31, as an ode to the little girl in me, the teenager that had to outgrow so much and the 20 year old that really tried because without them this 31 year old would not be, hope you enjoy and can relate one way or another….

1. God really does love me deep.
2. Other peoples expectations of you shouldn’t define you
3. You are the author to that blank page so do you and do it your way and its okay to occasionally erase restart boo
4. Live a little, who am i kidding live alot
5. We all hit walls at times whats important is knowing its not the end
6. Knowing whats for you and accepting it and what’s not and denying it is your power
7. Just because you love them to a fault doesn’t mean you have to have them. a heard hurtful truth,
8. Anything that comes between you and who you truely are your values morals is NOT WORTH IT
9. Not everything you deserve is meant for you
10. You can love on someone from a far
11. You find your drive and sometimes you loose it n thats okey find it again
12. Friends are actually soulmates
13. We loose touch at times with things n people dear to us it doesn’t mean either of us is wrong its just that growth is undefined at times
14. Loving every inch of you can also mean trying to fix yourself to perfection it doesn’t mean you don’t accept you it means you want to be and do better
15. Self discipline is HARD but vital
16. The saying “Life actually begins at 30” is a Fact
17. There is so much more to you just dig dipper
18. You are definitely not for everyone and that is okey
19. Never mistake growth for settling
20. You could be calm, collected and still a mess occasionally & i love it
21. We all have days we think we have it figured out & days we have no clue and that’s not the end of the world
22. The older i grow the more i find deeper meaning in the things that i love to do and enjoy them to the fullest
23. Boundaries are what God gave man to improve their mental space
24. Parents will shock you
25. Adulthood is calling a meeting with yourself to check yourself or pat yourself on the back
26. Life can start a fresh at any point
27. Learning is one thing but relearning is another
28. Give yourself some grace, be kind to yourself
29. Love as you get older can look exactly like you envisioned it in your teens or could be the opposite but both options are still possible realities, you can either accept it or just decide that is not the reality for you. Everyone’s reality does not have to be your reality
30. You are your best cheer leader and as much as that true, in the same breath, you could be your worst critic
31. New tribes can be formed at any point in life what’s even better is they meet you at where you are not at where you could have been in the past or future.