HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!
My oh my, if the fact that its taken me till end month to actually write up on the new year is not telling enough then I don’t know what is. Where do I even begin? I promised myself that I will start writing more often I even had a blog post for my birthday but somehow life just happened and one day the year was gone and my draft was still seating there looking at me like what’s up? I wish I would say I promise to do better and more writing but life just keeps happening so fast hey, so I wont make no promises however I will do the best I can because I love and enjoy this….
So first things first, me and Hilda welcomed the New Year on air and let me tell you it was absolutely amazing. At first we both had our reservations about it I mean ideally new years for me is new beginning and oh how i love the idea of watching fireworks when the new year comes in it is both refreshing and beautiful to watch and somewhat symbolizes a fresh start. But everyone knows that getting reservations and a spot to welcome the new year and watch fireworks in Dar is always such a hustle, so as much as I was looking forward to going to Dar not only for a breather that I deserved but also one of my closest friend was tying the knot. So last minute tickets where unavailable hence why we got one that meant the new year would find us on air. Despite dreading it at first, it was absolutely great. The pilots had a countdown, people on the flight were all cheery and in a festival mood and even better I got to watch fire works from the sky and my oh my was that absolutely beautiful. I knew for a fact i was going to have a great year.
I will definitely share recaps from last year, but now I just want to share all of my hopes for the new year, habits and relationships I am willing to adapt and those I am willing to let go, bucket lists and lord knows my gratitude bucket is really over flowing guys I know its just been January but wah!
What I would like to leave behind
Okay so I am not saying that I will for sure leave behind, however I think I have realized that some of the things I practice or dealt with last year or in the past, no longer serves me so I am open to dropping them and picking up better habits, relationships and the like. I remember speaking to some friends on new years and asking what’s one thing they would like to eave behind and one thing they want to do more and this is where I really thought about mine. I have a good/bad habit of over investing in people say friendship and hear me out I love the bond we have with friends it is one that is just out of this world really, however sometimes when these friendships are more one sided they take a toll on you, so I decided I want to stop being over available over understanding over stretching especially if it gets to me in any way, so whatever I do if I do it and don’t feel stretched thin then I have no problem but those that feel like Caroline calm down I really am not doing again! I also would like to drop the bad habit of over investing in relationships what so ever be it family be it romantic I really want to know my place in someone’s life and stand there, I realized sometime is expect so much from people because I do it, truth is they don’t owe me nothing just because I would break and arm and leg doesn’t mean they should too and as hard as that is its the truth.
I would like to stop procrastinating, ugh don’t we all just hate this. I have so many things that I set out to do and then keep saying next week next month next year, I have a Masters dissertation I took a break from then had to deal with supervisor changes and lord knows I should have been done since however I pray that this is the year I BAG THAT (writing it here to hold myself accountable sha) SO little to no procrastinating on the big and small things.
Overly reminiscing- it makes you stay in the past. I have had a seat down with myself and come to the conclusion I overly reminisce, Yes I have had some great experiences in the past with everything really, and this has me traveling in the past from time to time and while it has been great, it is of no use staying in those moments longer than need be. This sometimes as me overly tolerating things because at one point they worked out for me. I need to realize tat was then and this is now. Don’t get me wrong, nothing wrong with that trip down memory lane i mean a large chunk of what we are now is due to what we’ve been through but there’s no point in overdoing it really.
Overly complaining, omo I said last lent season I would give up complaining especially about things that are out of my control, that just deprives you of joy and I have come a long way so this goes into one of the tings I would like to drop like a bad a bit! So be it about life and its hurdles, work, relationships or family see enh if it is not something I can change then I leave it be. PERIOD!!
What I would like to start/do more
Travel Travel Travel! I just need to get out of planning and actually doing it. I have always wanted to see other parts of the world but see enh the economy is not smiling, I had a seat down with myself and thought it will never smile so I need to do something about it, it could be small scaled or out there but i really want to do more of that in 2023 andIi look forward to it.
Prioritize more often than not, sometimes I have my mind set on things be it personal goals, professional achievements or more and I tend to fall behind because of my prioritization and that is something I truly plan to work on alongside being more accountability for my goals, decisions (bot good and bad) See enh wen it comes to calling yourself out of your BS its hard but i can only try hey
Being more patient with myself and less harsh on some things, I realize I make hash decisions with myself and there are times i am not soo kind to myself say wen I set a boundary and then somehow don’t follow trough and it ends-up biting me in the A** I then end-up super harsh with myself like you could have avoided that had you stuck to the plan and what not. While this is true I really need to be more mindful of how I speak to myself, yes I am only human after all as much as the ending is always correct there things I cant take back even if t was self said.
Eat more greens, sounds small but lord knows I need to. I am particular with food the older I get the worse it becomes. I love good food and I am a certified foodie but when it comes to the basic I really don’t be liking alot of stuff ie plain rice, pilau, plantains, bananas, ugali, biriani, mashed potatoes, stew in general, greens, like the list is crazy but I have found things that work for me. One of the tings I want to do more this year is more greens alongside more water. Wish me luck sha!
Along with prioritizing rest I want to do more therapy. I find that the times i have done this it as really helped me unpack so many things, look at life in a better way and just made me feel more aligned and at peace. Although we are all used to having to do this after an incident or trigger I would suggest getting to see a therapist before one, it saves you so much BS and trauma. I doubt there is ever the right place to unpack all the stuff the right way but if that’s even possible then it would be to a therapist for sure.
Okay so this is about to make my friends laugh out silly, Connect with nature! Here me out, so I still hate walking no hikes either so I suppose what am saying is find new better cooler ways to connect with nature, whatever this is going to look like I have no idea. I will keep and open mind though…
Lastly I look forward to finding ways where I am more involved with or being able to give back more. This could be in any form or shape but I truly want to be able to do this in whatever capacity possible really.
Okay that about sums it up for me, I look forward to seeing how many of these I drop or pickup as permanent habits again hoping this blog post will hold me accountable. Hope everyone as a great year ahead, until next time…..
***XOXO***
catracarol 